my brother

my dad just rang me in tears.
I could barely make out his words.
my brother who known of the family have heard from in so many years because he cut everyone out and moved away has been found dead by the police.

my dad doesnt know how yet.
he is on his way to my brother's mums house.

I need to know the words. I know there are no right words. but how can I comfort my dad. what can I say? what is there to say.

my brain wants to dissociate as it has always done since childhood as a coping mechanism. but I'm fighting to stay in the here and now.

this isn't something I can hide away in my brain. my brother is dead.

dead.

ffs I'm sorry if I am triggering anyone. we weren't even that close I didnt know him that well. only met him properly in my late teens.

but now he is gone.

I tried to reach out to him last April last year but got no reply from him.

how can I pray for him. pray for his spirit
he wasnt spiritual, will the Angel's still be there for him.
waiting for him?

pls pls pray for him and my family and pls send healing.

I'm sorry if this isn't posted in the right category, I've been so stressed this week.

diagnosed with ptsd a few days ago and now this.

I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel devastated. I'm worried for my dad. I keep wondering how he died and what his last thoughts were.

but all at the same Time I'm also numb.
I'm numb. I dont know what to do.

this was the first place I thought to come.

rest in peace my brother. I love u x