I have a long history of eating disorderd thinking since the age of 6 years old.
diabetes which isn't controlled very well no matter what I eat.
I am not actively bulimic or anorexic but I still have the disorderd thinking as I couldn't get any help from the doctors with that, I have guilt when I eat, feel guilty thinking about eating, think about skipping meals and I regularly jump on the diet pills bandwagon which I know never works but I still do it lol
also I am not good at following diets or meal plans because im so funny with my eating that I literally only decided what im going to eat when I am hungry.
if I was to make a plan and not stick to it for some reason I feel guilty and obsessions start, for the same reason it is dangerous for me to count calories.
I also have a chronic pain condition which really is limiting how much physical exercise I can do, as well as body issues which means I wouldn't be seen dead in a swimming costume, to enable me to do light impact exercise like swimming.
maybe there are crystals or something that can help, or am I a lost cause lol.