so today has been a draining day and im a little down but not completely flat on my face, still have a little positivity left lol.
money is tight as I had to borrow some to live off last week and had to pay that back this week, and had to get some of jj school uniform, the rest I have to get in the hour before she has to be back at school Monday, tried to get her to try some stuff on in the uniform shop today so that we can just know what we are buying without messing about on Monday, but she had a huge meltdown in the shop because there was too many people in there.
told me I should have enough money to make sure she had her uniform already not wait til the last minute, true that, another bad mummy mark against my name lol
this upset me because I put food shopping last and choose to make her happy by getting her some bits, now we have to live off baked beans mainly til Monday so I thought this was insensitive for her to say.
after leaving there I bumped right into my eldest daughter who was with her girlfriend, we gave each other eye contact for a little longer than was necessary but none of us smiled and none of us spoke and I just walked right on past.
im feeling like the evil mother from hell now though as I should have been the bigger person and reached out but to be honest im not yet strong enough or ready to handle the rejection from someone I raised for 18 years, so it was easier to do nothing.
last of all I have been texting her dad over the last week over various things and then the minute I ask him for some financial help he ignores the text message.
I asked him 5 times over the last week and he hasn't responded, just ignores the text, doesn't answer when I ring, super pissed off that he can just pick and choose what he wants to talk about where our daughter is concerned.
if he hasn't got the money why cant he just say? or he could offer to buy some of the cheaper things like stationary, but no, nothing.
rant over lol.
money is tight as I had to borrow some to live off last week and had to pay that back this week, and had to get some of jj school uniform, the rest I have to get in the hour before she has to be back at school Monday, tried to get her to try some stuff on in the uniform shop today so that we can just know what we are buying without messing about on Monday, but she had a huge meltdown in the shop because there was too many people in there.
told me I should have enough money to make sure she had her uniform already not wait til the last minute, true that, another bad mummy mark against my name lol
this upset me because I put food shopping last and choose to make her happy by getting her some bits, now we have to live off baked beans mainly til Monday so I thought this was insensitive for her to say.
after leaving there I bumped right into my eldest daughter who was with her girlfriend, we gave each other eye contact for a little longer than was necessary but none of us smiled and none of us spoke and I just walked right on past.
im feeling like the evil mother from hell now though as I should have been the bigger person and reached out but to be honest im not yet strong enough or ready to handle the rejection from someone I raised for 18 years, so it was easier to do nothing.
last of all I have been texting her dad over the last week over various things and then the minute I ask him for some financial help he ignores the text message.
I asked him 5 times over the last week and he hasn't responded, just ignores the text, doesn't answer when I ring, super pissed off that he can just pick and choose what he wants to talk about where our daughter is concerned.
if he hasn't got the money why cant he just say? or he could offer to buy some of the cheaper things like stationary, but no, nothing.
rant over lol.