I dont generally run to forums for help. But i am at my wits end. I have what seem to be defined as precognative dreams and THEY ARE INCESSANT. I really just want them to stop. Ive had them since i was about ten and every time during the dream and the event which could be days to years apart it fills me with dread. Not fear, goosebumps or even a sense of deja vu. IMMEDIATE DREAD. The kind one feels when they turn around and see a rabid wild dog bearing its teeth. "That feeling of holy shit the world is ending." Every scientific study and article ive found just describes it as a feeling of "huh, thats strange." Or some major event like a terror attack. I just dont have those.
This seems to run in my family in various forms. My mother can teel you if something with happen or not intuitively but not why or when. My brother has dreams like mine varying in perfect detail and first or third person though he refuses to discuss them. I dont k ow what my father had but my mother makes it sound like he wa s much clearer than anyone else in the family just "knowing" things like my mother. Future events and current events only.
I know that even on a psychic board i probably sound like some kind of a nutjob. But i am seriously terrified and cant stop this. If i try to change the dreams they happen, if i dont try they happen anyways. Sometimes i can even see multiple sets of dreams that predict different outcomes in one specific case this was being homeless at different times over the course of what seem to be a year or two. One of these saw my mother dying and being evicted. The second saw us homeless, her dying shortly after. The third saw our good friend and neigbor dead along with at least one more in a seperate apartment building, its all hazy. And a fourth ive only recently pieced together and that is frightening me the most seems to be my avoidance of outcomes 1 and 2.
We were fighting a raw sewage leak in our government funded apartment building for the past 2 years, we lost a year ago and became homeless. The leak has spread into several adjacent units filled with good friends who are elderly. A woman named Kate whom my mother was very fond of died 4 months ago after we failed to get the government to fix it. 2 more are having strokes and have mold poisoning in addition to the sewage.
I dont want sympathy i can cope with life. Shit happens but i want to feel like i have a choice in determining the outcome. I really just hope someone on here knows how to stop these dreams. The next set is also grim and currently ongoing. And if i mess this up everyone in the apartments i am trying to save will become homeless rather than seeing the complex rebuilt as is in the stautes. Additionally we coukd become homeless again and im unsure where my mother is in these dreams.
I should note these dreams usually seem to be warning about my addiction to videogames, ive been disabled for most of my life. However when i try to not play games the dreams come through other mediums. Such as television in the backround even if im not watching it. Another popular one is just glancing out the window and the lawn. i cant win for losing.
I dont know if people in this site believe in demonds or something but im very scared im seeing things i shouldnt be. When i was 10 i tried to "hone" this gift. I left myself open and every time i did near the end of the dream i would wake up incapable of breathing like something metaphorically strangled me. My mother and Grandmother claim this is spirits on the other side telling me to stop. This usually happens after an intese feeling of dread like somethjng is seriously wrong. I dont mean to pry., i occasionally pray to God for direction and recieve a dream that night. I also pray for them to stop on occasion and get one that night. Im seriously at my wits end.
Anyhow im sorry for the rant. None of these dreams had much bearing on life until the last 3 years. I didnt even dream about having to nurse my moher on her deathbed for the 4 years prior to this. Youd think if hese were warnings that would have been a good one to prevent the accident she had. I didnt get one for it which leads me to believe im doing something to cause these dreams, but the more i try and stop the more frequently the outcomes ive seen occur. Likewise the more i try and have the dreams to understand whats going onthe more i have them YEARS in advance. I just cant win. The dreams onky pertain to MY life and surroundings no one elses aside from my family.
Its beginning to impede my judgement on serious issues in life including how to handle daily activites. Every dream i have conflicts with another and i HAVE to stop them. I use to base every decision on ethic and logic but im turning into an emotional wreck, if it helps im in my mid twenties. Im told they should should should subside some by 30 but i dont have time to wait.
The dreams seem to come in cycles of a month to a year of TONS of dreams. Then followed by a year or two of very few dreams with many of them if not all coming true. Includng the bulk of the previous dream phases dreams. I dont know if this helps.
Again i know i must sound insane but im just desperate. If anyone knows anything please tell me it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you. And i am sorry for the sob story i just feel the information may be important to obtaining an answer.
This seems to run in my family in various forms. My mother can teel you if something with happen or not intuitively but not why or when. My brother has dreams like mine varying in perfect detail and first or third person though he refuses to discuss them. I dont k ow what my father had but my mother makes it sound like he wa s much clearer than anyone else in the family just "knowing" things like my mother. Future events and current events only.
I know that even on a psychic board i probably sound like some kind of a nutjob. But i am seriously terrified and cant stop this. If i try to change the dreams they happen, if i dont try they happen anyways. Sometimes i can even see multiple sets of dreams that predict different outcomes in one specific case this was being homeless at different times over the course of what seem to be a year or two. One of these saw my mother dying and being evicted. The second saw us homeless, her dying shortly after. The third saw our good friend and neigbor dead along with at least one more in a seperate apartment building, its all hazy. And a fourth ive only recently pieced together and that is frightening me the most seems to be my avoidance of outcomes 1 and 2.
We were fighting a raw sewage leak in our government funded apartment building for the past 2 years, we lost a year ago and became homeless. The leak has spread into several adjacent units filled with good friends who are elderly. A woman named Kate whom my mother was very fond of died 4 months ago after we failed to get the government to fix it. 2 more are having strokes and have mold poisoning in addition to the sewage.
I dont want sympathy i can cope with life. Shit happens but i want to feel like i have a choice in determining the outcome. I really just hope someone on here knows how to stop these dreams. The next set is also grim and currently ongoing. And if i mess this up everyone in the apartments i am trying to save will become homeless rather than seeing the complex rebuilt as is in the stautes. Additionally we coukd become homeless again and im unsure where my mother is in these dreams.
I should note these dreams usually seem to be warning about my addiction to videogames, ive been disabled for most of my life. However when i try to not play games the dreams come through other mediums. Such as television in the backround even if im not watching it. Another popular one is just glancing out the window and the lawn. i cant win for losing.
I dont know if people in this site believe in demonds or something but im very scared im seeing things i shouldnt be. When i was 10 i tried to "hone" this gift. I left myself open and every time i did near the end of the dream i would wake up incapable of breathing like something metaphorically strangled me. My mother and Grandmother claim this is spirits on the other side telling me to stop. This usually happens after an intese feeling of dread like somethjng is seriously wrong. I dont mean to pry., i occasionally pray to God for direction and recieve a dream that night. I also pray for them to stop on occasion and get one that night. Im seriously at my wits end.
Anyhow im sorry for the rant. None of these dreams had much bearing on life until the last 3 years. I didnt even dream about having to nurse my moher on her deathbed for the 4 years prior to this. Youd think if hese were warnings that would have been a good one to prevent the accident she had. I didnt get one for it which leads me to believe im doing something to cause these dreams, but the more i try and stop the more frequently the outcomes ive seen occur. Likewise the more i try and have the dreams to understand whats going onthe more i have them YEARS in advance. I just cant win. The dreams onky pertain to MY life and surroundings no one elses aside from my family.
Its beginning to impede my judgement on serious issues in life including how to handle daily activites. Every dream i have conflicts with another and i HAVE to stop them. I use to base every decision on ethic and logic but im turning into an emotional wreck, if it helps im in my mid twenties. Im told they should should should subside some by 30 but i dont have time to wait.
The dreams seem to come in cycles of a month to a year of TONS of dreams. Then followed by a year or two of very few dreams with many of them if not all coming true. Includng the bulk of the previous dream phases dreams. I dont know if this helps.
Again i know i must sound insane but im just desperate. If anyone knows anything please tell me it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you. And i am sorry for the sob story i just feel the information may be important to obtaining an answer.